The Turn's Complicated

I hate driving. I'm insecured on the road. It's difficult for me to drive from one station to another station. And yet, LIFE doesn't remain on solely ONE station.

I am used to be alone, single, doing my own thing on my own...to my own ease...
I am furious of this world in which (in most cases) templates are pre-set for each of us...It's a cycle: birth --> schooling --> working --> marriage --> produce new generation --> retired --> old --> death

I am in the midst of working and pressure of seeking mate just to go through the stage of marriage...Not only I am pressurised...but also other people in this world (especially those from conventional family)... at least these include two guys who approach me for a try...

I have not ready for this turn yet. It's too complicated for me...It's far more complicated when there are more than one turn...How to start moving....how to choose where to turn to...

I learnt the poem "The Road Not Taken" but I was not taught on how to make a choice or decision from the poem...

A question without solution...I guess just lift to my Lord...and wait.....

I hope I don't have to make too many turns...as I am insecured on the road...