Adicepool- The angelic Deviling

Captains and Cruise Ships- Owl City music video

2011-09-30T10:42:00.001+08:00

New Educational Blog

2011-08-30T10:31:00.002+08:00

Recently, since 2010, I develop a new educational blog specifically for teaching English.

There are quite a lot of teaching materials I design and produce. Just to share with those interested busy teachers.

Hope you will like it: http://biteenglish.blogspot.com/

Disappearance

2011-08-30T09:57:00.003+08:00

I wonder what I had been doing since 2010 until I almost forgot my intimate blog here..

1st reason: heavy workload
2nd reason: heavy workload
3rd reason: heavy workload

haha...but...at the same time...how long have I forgot to talk to myself?!

unanswered...I forgot...

one thing I realised is that nowadays...I'm getting forgetful and I'm getting introvert...

The last blog I wrote about is regarding insomnia...I'm still suffering from it now... It's worsen...Depression...

But, that's not a new story... I'm used to it now...

Tell u the latest news...my 3 best friends of my life got married this year...One in Feb, One in June and One tomorrow 31st August 2011...

where's my turn?
no answer...

Hot Air Balloon- Owl City Music Video

2011-05-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

Vanilla Twilight-Owl City Music Video

2011-03-21T06:40:00.000+08:00

Strawberry Avalanche- Owl City music video

2011-01-15T07:39:00.000+08:00

On the Wing-Owl City music video

2010-10-30T10:42:00.000+08:00

Insomnia

2010-09-03T08:55:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I'm suffering from Insomnia lately (for years)... it's getting critical these few months...
Asking why? stress (I guess)...

At night....around 10.30 p.m...as long as before 11, I'd force myself to go to bed. Laying on bed and wait I'm unconsciously falling asleep ...sometimes...I would be laying for a few minutes...the longest record I break in my life is at least 3 hours....

I dream a lot at night... which makes me can't have a 'real' mental rest at night...

sometimes...or most of the time (lately)....I would wake up at the interval...due to the noise..e.g. dogs barking, vehicles horn. etc... then...I can't sleep and have to lay on my bed...wait wait...at least up to 1 hour to go to sleep again....

every morning...I'll automatically wake up at anytime in between 7.30-8.00 a.m....
that means...I have not enough sleep...I only have 7-hour sleeping time...
meanwhile, I need at least 10-hour sleeping time...

the worse part is if I didn't have enough sleeping time...I would have headache the whole day...can't concentrate...accident-prone...dark circle...poor image...easily get angry...hot-tempered....not productive....
in long term memory loss...less energetic...depression...

who can help me? I guess I really need to consult a doctor or perhaps a counselor?
however, according to my relatives, sleeping pills shouldn't be the choice...the pills are not good for our health...in long term...we'll be suffering from its side-effects..

so...what to do?

Am I moving?

2010-06-15T11:03:00.003+08:00

Yesterday, with a group of friends paid a visit to a friend who will be mother soon.

On the way back to home, I chatted with my friend who fetched me home. We had a few topics of discussion. One was highlighted by me as I said "time really passes fast". Another was highlighted by her as she said "every family/people has their own problem".

Firstly,
Time really passes fast.
Is it the fact that time really passes fast?
Or, my friend is moving fast (from engagement, wedding, pregnancy, new baby within one year) ?
Or, am I the one who is standing at the original place?

Sometimes, I would wonder if I'm the one who had the illusion that everyone is moving fast, so I'm moving too. It is like the situation when my car is not moving, but the other cars are moving, thus, I thought I am moving. May be I should take a move..a significant one.

Secondly,
Every family/people has their own problem.
Yes. My friends share about their problem in planning for marriage or (some) their marriage life. In addition, some are identical to me--problem of being still 'available' while their parents are urging for 'something'. They have their problems. We have our problems. I have my problems. We cling to one another for companion. Yet, we're the one who needs to solve the problems ourselves.

Blessed to everyone. We encounter different situations or face different worries in each phase of life. Yet, we can go through each one bit by bit.

Gambateh!

I changed my Blogger Favicon

2010-06-03T16:02:00.012+08:00

I'm always jealous of other blogger site's favicons. Now, I "happened" to master the skill.

1. Find/Create an image.
-You may create it yourself.
But, I get it free from IconsPedia. Download the image I love as png format.
-Then, I resize it to 16x16 pixel

2. Upload to my photobucket site.
-I upload my image to photobucket and save it.

3. Edit layout
-Then, I edit my blogger Layout > Edit html
-search "title" tag which ended with "b:skin" tag
-paste the code in between "title" tag and "b:skin" tag to become:

remember to replace put the direct URL of your image here with the direct link of your image

4. Save template and View blog

haha...I really enjoy it...my new Favicon...teddy bear

Here are some of my collections of icons downloaded (Credit to IconsPedia):

'Happy' Tr's Day 2010

2010-05-27T16:36:00.005+08:00

Our school has just celebrated Teacher's Day this morning.

Frankly speaking, it is a tiring day for me.

It is not typical Teacher's Day as usual year. It is because there are two events on at the same time. One is the launching of our school e-portal. Another is the launching of Green Book.
The rehearsal had been done twice yesterday morning until afternoon.

I'm alone in charge of cleanliness of the school hall where the occasion took place. Before and while are still okay for me. I asked help from my two classes of students to sweep the hall right after the rehearsal. It took around half an hour. Today, early in the morning, I check again whether there are any rubbishes.

The disaster comes when students are provided with packets of food. Although announcement was made, some classes of students are too irresponsible, they dared to throw the whole big plastic bag on the floor with their snacks and sweets wrappers as well as their bottles.
The most irritated thing is when the students (I assigned to help for the cleanliness after show) are missing. I'm the only one with two students (whom I 'caught' on the spot) pick up the rubbish and do what the cleaner does.

The task is supposed to be Fine.
The problem is my state of health condition which makes me depressed and irritated all these while. Not sleeping well, MC, low blood level, easily stressed out.

However, I received some tokens from my own class...especially flowers and puddings...thanks the students for the ONLY motivation of the day.

'Happy' Tr's Day although it is one of the most tiring days in the year.

The best gift for me is Holiday to replace the celebration day.

Presents from Japan

2010-05-21T17:09:00.006+08:00

My brother has just back yesterday night by flight.

He brought wrapped presents for us and relatives...chocolates and snacks.

This is the most expensive gift for us:

Quoted from the package, it stated:
"The Seven Gods of Fortune (in Japanese mythology):
Ebisu, god of fishermen or merchants, often depicted carrying a sea bleam
Daikokuten, god of wealth, commerce and trade
Bishamonten, god of warriors
Benzaiten, goddess of knowledge, art and beauty, especially Music
Fukurokuju, god of happiness, wealth and longevity
Hotel, the fat and happy god of abundance and good health
Jurojin, god of wisdom"

There are 7x7 pieces.
The flavours inlcude red bean pastes, sesame, oat, etc.

For us, these snacks are sweet in mouth and in heart. Thanks for the blessings.

What does BLACK mean to you?

2010-05-17T23:11:00.005+08:00

Today, my head told one of my colleagues that the sky was dark this afternoon. Head 'blamed' (kiddingly) the trs who were wearing black blouses or T.
...actually this scenario happens quite frequently...
If that day's raining and coincidentally may trs wear black...he will defintely 'say' the same thing.
To him, black means rainy day.

As for my mum, she is always dissatisfied with me if I wear black.
She dislikes young girls who wear black.
To her (I guess), black means unlucky.

However, she wears black.
I ask her, "Why?"
Her answer is "Black is suitable for plump women."
To her, black means slim.

I wear black.
Sometimes, I look fairer in black T.
To me, black means contrast.

Sometimes, I look darker in black long shirt.
To me, black means dark.

I always wear black skirt. It is easier to match with any blouses in any colours.
To me, black means ease.

However, I avoid black blouse especially during hot days.
To me, black means heat.

Sometimes, my head requests us to wear black trousers.
To her, black means formality.

Among teenagers,
black could mean trend.
or even means cool.

What's your definition of B.L.A.C.K.?

Reading for Writing

2010-05-16T21:38:00.002+08:00

I'm no longer struggling to update my blog.

Lately, instead of writing, I read more.

I explored quite a lot blogs. Some are blogs-of-note. Some are related to my interests.

(May be) with the inspiration...I secretly build up four other blogs.

The main reason is that I'm lured by the attractive blogger templates available @ bTemplates.com

By this means, Hopefully, I can narrow down my mind. My mind is sometimes too complicated...even though I always strive for simplicity...

Managing different blogs with different themes could help me to focus each sphere in my brain.

Look forward for a new change...through reading and writing...

New Outlook New Mood

2010-05-14T09:29:00.002+08:00

Today, when I'm surfing others' blog. I'm amazed by their blog templates.
So, I search and try to change my own blog template...
within a few minutes...I did it!!! Yeah!!! Really happy of my 'hard' work..

Here, let me share a few websites on blog templates:

1. bTemplates
2. blogger templates
3. blogcrowds
4. bloggertemplatesFree
5. btemplates
6. blogger templates
7. bloggertemplatesblog
8. bloggerstyles

Now..with the available free templates, how to 'grasp' it as yours?
1. Download a template and unzip.
2. Go to the Layout section in your blog (Dashboard → Layout → Edit HTML ).
3. Under "Backup / Restore Template",
Before editing your template, you may want to save a copy of it. Download Full Template.
4. Browse and upload your template.
5. Njoy your new outlook and new mood.

No boundaries between LoVe and hatRED

2010-05-05T00:01:00.001+08:00

Recently I came across a blogger wrote an issue about LOVE vs HATE..she said Hate comes from Love. She had given ample examples of couples who eventually turn into enemies.

It really triggers my mind to define these two terms. To me, there ain't any boundaries between Love and Hatred. We may own both of these feelings when we are in a relationship with someone. It could be the situation that decides which roles we take.

For instance, a talkative female married to a quiet male. They love each other and tolerate with one another when they are dating. They found their partners are the best because they compensate the missing part of their life.
After marriage, the situation changes. Illusion is changed into Reality.
How could a quiet man stand the noise all this while? How could a sociable woman stay together with a boring guy?
They start facing the conflict. If it is resolved, they may be closer to each other. If NOT, the ultimate ending most likely is DiVorCe.
They knew the personality of their partners before got married. They regard it as their partner's strength.
However, they are the one who eventually can't tolerate with their spouse's weaknesses.
It's the conflicting situation that cause reality vs illusion until they judge one another differently.

In fact, the love/hatred in their partner's heart has not been triggered yet. It requires trials to prove all things throughout the time.

Secure an Insecurity

2010-05-02T23:36:00.002+08:00

I'd just done a test lately...

Imagine you are with your (boy)girl friend, what would you prefer to do when you date with (him) her?
Option A: hand in hand and walk in silent place to have heart-to-heart talk
Option B: lie on the bed and talk until the day dawns
Option C: hugging and kissing in crowded place(s)
Option D: go to any places of interest to have sweet memories

I chose A. I think it's quite true.

A typical Taurus lives in her safe zone. She urges for security. There shouldn't be gap in between. Or else, it will cause her to think much. Thus, he should always accompany her to grant her secured relationship. NO chance for distance.

I guess I know how to solve the dilemma I face lately... secured the insecurity!

Look Forward...Step Backward

2010-05-02T10:31:00.002+08:00

The farther you look, the nearer you stay.

It is my second year of teaching. I thought I get used to the responsibilities and chores here.

Yet, the workload never ceases to burden my shoulder...it is increasing each day...
Thanks to the satan-horned angels in the school. They are the snakes that directly and indirectly lure Adam to eat the apparent sweet fruits...causing him leaving from heaven heading to the hell subconsciously...

It is true .... people start changing when they start working.

Before this, I had ambitious visions to be accomplished... After one or two years, the visions are impossible... the barriers are along the paths...the body is getting heavier to drag it

Through the close observation in my working environment, the higher the post, the heavier its duty. The clearer I see, the less I do.

Sometimes, I will ask myself "What-the-hell life I'm living?!"
Sometimes, I will consider to leave it or live it....

Hope I'm enlightened one day...

If Dreams came trueee eeeee.........

2010-03-11T21:01:00.002+08:00

One problem has been troubled me for quite a long time..ie...dreaming at night...or I would rather say dreaming while sleeping...
Dreams could be entertaining, but most of the time Dreams are dreadful...
I can't imagine if there was one day...it's dream that dreads me to death...
Quite often...my dreams are more imaginary, exciting than any usual movies...
Lately, habitually, I've dreamt of a horror scene...
I am standing at a place which is a haunted spot..with mother...
I talk to my mum...then..a big image of calligraphy appears behind her...
I try to read it...but there is no flow of the characters....
By then, I know....I can sense a forcing power from outer space....I'm haunted by evil spirit again...
It's worse when I realised my other family members are already controlled by the spirit...
The only thing I can do now...whether I believe or doubt (I've not been pray for quite a long time)....
is pray to God to set free from the spirit...

At last....I could feel relieved....my prayer works
...
The dream is so vivid until I can still recall the details after at least one week...
The only thing I'm dread of is 'Is it merely a dream or it means a dream to be true'

FULL CNY= Blessed CNY

2010-02-17T18:06:00.002+08:00

I received a lot Chinese New Year (CNY) greeting SMSes from my friends (Thanks for ur greetings, friends)...Most wish me for blessed CNY...

what's blessed CNY for us?
=more wealth $$ 财富
=healthier body 健康
=more successful career 事业
=able to realise your dream 梦想
=safe 平安
=have good BGR boy-girl relationship 感情
=have adequate food, clothes, rest 吃好穿好睡好
=beauty or energy 青春永驻

These are the typical wishes among the Chinese.
And, the most important concern of most Chinese is about our fate of that year 今年运程

The questions are:
Are these things be the one we should strive for in this world?
Who determines our fate?

We all wish for FULL 满满:
food FULL 米缸满满，money FULL 钱财满满, fuel FULL 油满满, FULL of happiness 欢乐满满，stomach FULL 肚子满满, etc...

The questions are:
Where is the FULL level? .
When are we satisfied?

??????

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I said I did write BUT not in English

2010-02-17T17:56:00.002+08:00

I had promised myself to update my blog from time to time...and yet...
I did write...
just...it ended up with more bloggings in Mandarin (my top preferred language among three languages I normally use)

I'm not guilty of it...until I read my friend's blog...and I'm on his blogger friends list...

It reminds me of my kid 'this blog'...keke...

Nevermind....if YOU happen to click on the link to this page...n...you find out that the blogger of this page did not update her blog...Don't get mad....n say CEH....

She is still blogging...but in different version....different website @
http://blog.xuite.net/adicepool/angelDev/

Restart ....The art of writing

2009-11-28T16:12:00.002+08:00

I admit that I quit writing blog for quite a long time...especially in English version...
Neither do I write any pieces of work in English after I graduated from university...
I could say...at this moment...I'm more proficient in Malay language...if compared to English language which should be my expertise.

Lately, due to the force of my department, I am going to teach English...
It's one of the forcing reasons that I persuade myself to write, to talk, to listen, etc

Recently, I watched a Hong Kong Drama series...one of the characters writes blog to express her feeling...as a tool to reflect her growth in her world...
I was touched by the power of writing.

Hence, I make a wish..hoping n disciplining myself...
at least...write a few sentences reflecting my feeling of the day..

Restart now...

Happy Birthday to Me..hhehe

2009-04-25T15:30:00.002+08:00

Another birthday in my life.

Let me make some wishes:

1. I wish to pay off my "debt" (of course, the first thing is to earn more money);
2. I wish I am more conscious of my health (getting old physically and psychologically);
3. I wish I have more time with friends, either new or old, (home alone);
4. I wish I realise my "dream" (the threat is approaching);
5. I wish to visit to places of interest with my whole family (money again!)

Amen.

New blog site of me...kekek

2009-04-13T18:33:00.003+08:00

Recently, I prefer writing in Mandarin language to writing in English...

For this preference, I start a new blog at a Chinese Taiwanese blogging site...(Xuite.net)

At the same time, I fall in love with entertainment, places of interest and photography... (^o^)These are women's favourites~

The site is splendid with all these features...I can be easily linked to others' blogs in relation to my favourites...

If u can read Chinese characters, feel free to my new blog which is primarily written in Mandarin language...hope to develop it sooner...

My Chinese Blog: http://blog.xuite.net/adicepool/angelDev

Mari belajar suku kata, kanak-kanak!!!

2009-04-09T00:09:00.002+08:00

I'd been teaching Transition Malay Language (BM) Class for three months eventhough I'm NOT specialise in BM. I have nine students with poor command of BM, and three of them are illiterate...

I've been searching materials to drill them from the basic skill like "sebutan suku kata"...and the result is unsatisfied...

There are a lot of sites tat teach English language but NOT Malay Language...

Thus, I have to adapt some ideas used for teaching English Language...

These few months, I'm trying to develop simple worksheets for the students, especially reading and writing skill...

Now, I'm still at the initial stage of designing materials for basic pronunciation of 'suku kata' starting from vowels, consonants and a mix of both...

I'll upload a few self-designed BM worksheet soon...

Fun with suku kata

Spice up my Lover

2009-04-08T00:38:00.005+08:00

Getting bored with the appearance of my desktop, Im searching means and ways to change its appearance...

For these few months, Im falling in love with the sites tat offer lots of downloads of fonts, wallpapers, icons...

One of them is

http://mintywhite.com/tech/

Credit to MintyWhite.com and its counterparts

The following are some icons, fonts, wallpapers, etc tat I downloaded from the "glamourous" sites linked from MintyWhite.com

(Source: http://mintywhite.com/tech/ )

Icons:

Fonts:

Wallpapers

For more downloads, pls explore -->> (Source: http://mintywhite.com/tech/ )

Redirecting...

2009-04-08T00:16:00.002+08:00

Im back because...

Lately, I was reminded over and over by my professor tat REFLECTIONs are needed in our life...

I lost my temper in class, I hate students who didn't finish their work, impolite students,
I detest work in school, even no parking place can make me stamping my foot...
oso (sometimes) people who's commanding me, and, of course, those who always "threaten" me to teach the exam classes...

The worst of ALL is due to the Faces--unfriendly, sour, cunning, pretending

The world is Black...

It brings Blue...

It takes away White...

It causes me Red and Green...

I lost my Purple and Orange...

To balance my lose, Im trying redirecting my direction...through REFLECTIONs, as suggested by my didactic professor....

Hope I'll recover....

I lost my hand...

2009-04-08T00:05:00.004+08:00

I had not been blogging for a long time...

The secondary reason is I lost my writing ability...
In both of my BM and GEO classes, I deal with my students in Malay language...
I have no chance to b exposed to practise my English...gradually I lost my writing ability...
It took me a long time to construct a sentence...
Thus, most of the time, I give up...

The most frequent means I used to record my feelings of the day is through sharing my feeling at Facebook...
I just need to type a few words...without any effort to compose any articles...

Mingled between two languages, Im always confused with English and Malay language...
At the end, I have good command of bahasa lojak...sigh...

The saddest part of my life is Im no longer sensitive to my grammatical mistakes while communicating in Bahasa lojak

Lamentttttttt

Repetitive Routine...(U can read wif the risk of wasting ur time ;)

2009-04-07T23:34:00.005+08:00

It had been such a long time I din blog.

The main cause is the repetitive routines are not worth to b touched on.

How's the routine of a teacher like?

Morning:--> wake up around 9-10.00 a.m. (due to insomnia), wash cloth, dry the cloth, get ready for ingredients for cooking lunch, play with Doggy, cook lunch, take bath, get dressed, skin care, dry hair, take lunch, drive to school

Afternoon-Evening:-->find parking place at school (* the school's terribly lack of parking places, D*mn it!), glance through lessons today, mark exercise book, write lesson plan, chat wif colleagues, pick up students from the schoool hall (* this school's weird...form tr nid to pick up their Ss from school hall to their own class...overdepended!), have daily prayer (yes...pray...coz it's a mission school), clean up the class, teach, teach another class, recess, sometimes, have meeting, other admin chores, teach, teach, the last period...clean up the class 5 minutes earlier before the bell rings, drive home

Night:-->take bath, dinner, watch TV, online, mark Ss exercise books (if any), prepare for lessons, other admin chores....deng deng....go for sleep late...with dreamsssss....but NOT enough rest...

In sum, it's hectic life in school everyday, and the school has endless activities, starting from the beginning of the year until the end of the year...
for instance, majlis Anugerah SERASI, MSSG Sibu (Sport's Day for Division Level), Analisis PMR, Hari Permuafakatan, Cultural Nite, in-school competitions, KK, pencerapan, form teacher, students affairs, (sometimes) students' misbehavior n other upcoming events..................................

The toughest of all is as the NEW teacher, we r always been exploited by the school to the fullest...
Kononnya mau latih bakat baru...ceh...

Expected heavy workload, repetitive routines...kill my interest for a new day...

I won't lament if I were a robot or a machine.... yet, Im a human who is treated as robot or machine...Who cares about your feeling???

?????

LOVE, which form are You in?

2009-02-14T00:10:00.004+08:00

LOVE, which form are You in?

I knew You since I born.

Do I really know You?

You are my host.
I visited You and You are warm with tender pat.

You are my guest.
You visited me and You left. Empty.

You are my friend.
I talk to You when I've things to share.

You are stranger to me.
You comes in with mask that I am not familiar with.

You are my partner.
You know what I know.

You are my enemy.
You misuse what You know.

You are my God.
You rules my heart.

You are the Ghost.
You ruins my life.

You hugs me.
You haunts me.

Leave me.
Live with me.

Reveal Yourself.
Let me know You.

It's You who keeps me surviving.
It's You who kills me.

You are my
Life--keeps me surviving
Omega--keeps me healthy
Vein--keeps me alive
Earth--keeps me safe

You are
Liar--cheats me
Omen--harms me
Volcano--burns me
Evil--ruins me

LOVE, which form are You in?
-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-

Happy牛year!!!

2009-01-24T13:42:00.002+08:00

Happy牛year!!!

It's time for CNY for all Chinese...

As usual, my family is busy preparing for it. Once in a year, it's time for me to do the thorough cleaning.

As usual, our relatives are back. Once in a year, it's time for me to recall my relatives' names and to update their news.

Year after year, I'm less and less excited about it...It comes and it came and then it'll come...repeating again and again...It's just a reminder for me "how fast the TIME pass"

Year after year, the NEW comes and the OLD gone...the greeting remains...will they be realised..

Unanswered each year...

And Yet, the greeting of HappyNewYear is repeating each year...

Im lost in my space...

while celebrating CNY...

Happy牛year though...

《无人理无人怜的小孩》

2009-01-18T11:52:00.002+08:00

害怕面对不知所措害怕看到血腥日记
寂寞悲哀相继伴随不断探索
哪只手是温暖哪只手是冰冷

一直被当实验品考验接近极限的忍耐力
怨恨烙印在手心不愤而挣扎得遍体鲮伤
铐着手的链为何总锁不住安全感

我不要再当无人理的小孩
让我独自面对人间冷暖
承担了原始世界的变质

我不要再当无人怜的小孩
让死亡的威胁一步步逼迫我
并吞了原本纯洁的灵魂

弱小的躯壳耐得了空虚耐不了折磨
谁家小孩有如此的命运没有流泪的权利
只剩残酷的胜利谁备小孩避风港

我不要再当无人理的小孩
让我独自面对人间冷暖
承担了原始世界的变质

我不要再当无人怜的小孩
让死亡的威胁一步步逼迫我
并吞了原本纯洁的灵魂

只能靠自己的意志力支撑生命力夺回该有的权利
谁疯了我是镜子我是答案我是你们可悲的胜利

我不要再当无人理无人怜的小孩

(c) copyright, 2009. http://adicepool.blogspot.com/

InComPlete Scattered Verses

2009-01-14T13:00:00.000+08:00

床角不为人知的字迹锁在眼目里
忘了何时割伤了手疼痛时才察觉伤得太深
一句话才惊觉错得太多
收拾重心平衡心真想大病一场
虽然没有酒精世界仍旧沉醉
太爱才割爱
别再见，不见了！
面对面的坦白只是一个人对空气告白
当彼此错过彼此勇气不再回返
以为错过了还有下一班车却邂逅了日落
未为拥有最为圆美
天意何能违抗命运何能独扛
空气回应了沉默分辨不出是现实还是预言
Don't say goodbye, don't say game over...

BeTraYal

2009-01-13T10:03:00.004+08:00

Betrayal is

---a kind of murder in which your closed one turns into a murderer who kills You secretly from your back merely with a string of line or wire. If You're lucky, the murderer might reveal himself/herself in the last moment prior to your death. Unlucky are those die without knowing who the murderer is or what the cause is...

---drinking a cup of pure water given by a closed one to ease your thirst, and yet, at the end, you faint and lying down without realising it's senseless potion.

---a storm comes without signs and grasps everything away and leaves only Sorrow, Horror, endless Tears, broken Heart, Deep wounds

---a transformation of a Friend whom you love to an Enemy whom you will take revenge on, Love to Hatred, Hope to Despair, Dream to Reality, Naive to Mature, Innocent to Cruel

BeTraYal, how powerful You are...

The Turn's Complicated

2009-01-10T10:20:00.003+08:00

I hate driving. I'm insecured on the road. It's difficult for me to drive from one station to another station. And yet, LIFE doesn't remain on solely ONE station.

I am used to be alone, single, doing my own thing on my own...to my own ease...
I am furious of this world in which (in most cases) templates are pre-set for each of us...It's a cycle: birth --> schooling --> working --> marriage --> produce new generation --> retired --> old --> death

I am in the midst of working and pressure of seeking mate just to go through the stage of marriage...Not only I am pressurised...but also other people in this world (especially those from conventional family)... at least these include two guys who approach me for a try...

I have not ready for this turn yet. It's too complicated for me...It's far more complicated when there are more than one turn...How to start moving....how to choose where to turn to...

I learnt the poem "The Road Not Taken" but I was not taught on how to make a choice or decision from the poem...

A question without solution...I guess just lift to my Lord...and wait.....

I hope I don't have to make too many turns...as I am insecured on the road...

~Happy New Year 2009~My wish is to become....

2009-01-01T10:16:00.006+08:00

At the beginning of each year, I'd make a wish...no, not just a wish, but rather more than one...

As usual, I wish for my family's health, career, close relationship and esp for those who are single, hope they can find their faithful mate...

For myself, I do hope don't be burdened by my work and stay healthy, disciplined.

Another dream of my youth is becoming a star...Quite shy to think of it...However, this dream won't be realised...

Recently, I can only realise my star dream through the advancement of technology...

Guess HOW? Photoshop? A bit true...It's part of it, but easier than photoshoping...

Let's KUSO with fun..!

Just for FUN...Be happy...!!! happy New Year 2009!!!***

Scrabbling !@$%^&^@,@>.

2008-12-30T15:19:00.006+08:00

Occasionally, I like to scrabble a few words, thoughts, verses, lyrics of mine.
It's a habit. It has no theme, no format, no grammatical rules to follow. In other words, it's purposeless, borderless and most importantly without any audiences to address to.
Just scrabble.
It can be in Mandarin, English or even Malay language version.

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今天 [Poem311208-1]
如果童年就在昨天成长在明天我愿意留住今天让童年的画面清晰地留在脑海中
让对明天的期待永远留着

{Translated version for [Poem311208-1]}
Today
If our childhood stayed on Yesterday If our growth grew on Tommorrow I make a wish to stay on Today so that the image of Yesterday remains vividly clear in my mind

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回忆 [Poem311208-2]
抚摸整个脸颊停留在曾有他味道的烙印回味着回味着只剩下我世界里的回忆

{Translated version for [Poem311208-2]}
My Memory
Touch thoroughly each cell on his face
Staying on the mark with his aroma
Taste, Feel, Touch it
They are now left in my memory

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Holy spirit or evil spirit works during Christmas season?

2008-12-27T22:47:00.002+08:00

Are U recently quite tied up with Christmas dates, dinners, sales, parties, and so on?
I'm one of them.

Did we get any benefits or satisfactions from these endless activities during Christmas???
I gain extra weight, suffer from obesity...at the same time, I listen to inspiring sermon, testimonials, good news.

One question strikes my mind at the end of the day after Christmas...:
Holy spirit or evil spirit works during Christmas season?

For Christians, Christmas is the birthday of Jesus Christ, our saviour. It's the day when the Good News spread.
One of the prayers we always do with our pastors during Christmas:

Alba Father, in this great day, we remember our mission in this world, that is, spreading your Good news. Lord, be our saviour, cast away our sins and accept us as your sons and instill in our heart your precious words. May your holy spirit work upon us so that we keep a good relationship with you and do our part in fulfilling our mission, that is, spreading your gospel. Lord, protect us from the evil spirit that will be the blocking stone of our Christian life. In Jesus most precious name we pray. Amen.

Despite the great effort made, some people may choose the other routes which give way to the evil spirit. They might be engaged in their own world of materialism, hedonism, hypocriticism, sex, drug, alcohol, etc. For example, the evil spirit of materialism may work in form of Christmas sale when some people overspend their money for luxurious Christmas celebration or gift. Another example can be that the evil spirit of hedonism embeds in all forms including endless Christmas meals, parties, etc in which their pleasure is the chief goal of the Christmas day.

Reflecting on my own Christmas activities, how long have I been spending on my own pleasure and on God's pleasure???

I do another prayer for myself:
Alba Father, human beings are weak in your eyes. I'm weak and easily gave way for the evil spirit. Lord, forgive me and cleanse my sins with Jesus Christ's blood and your love. I'm regret of my sinful self. Lord, please strengthen and discipline me. Rule my heart with your words. Guide my foot with your light. Save me from the worldly temptations. In Jesus' name I pray. Amen.

Have you allowed the holy spirit or the evil spirit to work during Christmas? You have a choice. Be WISE.

Have a blessed Christmas season and Happy New Year!

Winter Comes...

2008-12-22T09:57:00.006+08:00

Chinese People's Winter Solstice Festival (冬至"Dong Zhi") always falls on 24th of the eleventh lunar month or a few days before Christians' Christmas Day. Literally, the phrase "冬至" means Winter Comes.

During this festival, Chinese will always eat glutinous rice ball (汤圆"Tang Yuan"). This food is made of glutinous rice rolled into balls. Nowsadays, there are various way of making glutinous rice ball. It can be dry, stirred with peanut, milk or coconut powder. The other alternatives can be served in soup, stuffed with peanut, red bean, cocoa paste, etc.

As usual, as Chinese, my family celebrates this traditional Chinese Festival. At the same time, each year, my mum will bake the raw ingredient of glutinous rice ball as well as cooked glutinous rice ball to be sold in the Sunday market. Helping my mum, I found less and less customers each year buying or eating our traditional food on this meaningful traditional festival. One cause could be people spend less due to economic crisis. This is considerable excuse. Another cause could be Chinese forsake their tradition gradually.

If the Chinese forsake their own tradition gradually,it is a threat to our Chinese tradition. It is my main worry. This scenario not only evident during Winter Solstice but also other Chinese festivals like Chinese New Year, Moon Cake Festival, Dumpling Festival. Worst still when the Chinese traditional virtues (e.g. respecting the elders, loving the family, being loyal to own spouse, hardworking, honest) are no longer been practised. This is much more significant in Chinese young generation.

I lament for the lost. The lost of our Chinese tradition which is evident each year. I beg for all Chinese generations to remember our traditions and practise them. Each of them has their meanings.

Taken for example, eating glutinous rice ball custom during Winter Solstice Festival has its memorable meaning that was transmitted by our anscestor. Glutinous rice ball (汤圆"Tang Yuan") resembles REUNION...Hoping and Wishing the whole family reunited and living in harmony as well as happiness. It is also a custom of commemorating the lost of the loved ones and wising for the future aspirations of a better life.

So, all Chinese, have you eatten the glutinous rice ball during this Winter Solstice Festival. If no, DO SO!. You can make and eat the glutinous rice ball together with your family, friends, lovers, relatives, etc...spread your love.

In-Ter-Net (In The Net)

2008-12-18T01:59:00.001+08:00

Recently, I just installed Streamyx Combo n Njoy the unlimited surfing.

On one 'flaming' side, Im excited in Xploring a various list of websites to compensate my unfulfilled thrist when Im NOT 'connected' for a few months. Im Xtremely AcTive in emailing, searching, downloading, blogging, peeping, testing, trialling, thrilling, etc.

On another 'fooling' side, my mind is clogged with surfing Internet...addicted to it. My BIOclock is affected as I spent sleepless nite on net. Occasionally, Im trapped in TechNoPhobia, especially facing Tech problem. It's brainteasing to wrestle with IT problems for a girl whose IT knowledge's filled in a half pail.

I can foresee my future, Im going to be trapped ***In The Net*** like some of U. More severely going wracko wrestling with worm in this WorldWideWeb.

LORD, save Me from the temptation....^o^